Well hello there. It’s been a while. My blogging break was semi accidental, semi intentional. I found myself with little desire to write, and found the more time I spent away from my laptop the better I felt. Instead I seem to have gone for the ultimate escapism. A break from work, blogging, London and working out as I enjoy some time back in the countryside where I grew up. It’s been pretty magical. Yet now, as expected, I find myself yearning to return. Some time away can do wonders.
My room at my dad’s house is peppered with travel photos. On my arrival home I looked around and counted the countries – a photo taken on a beach in Fiji, a print bought in the Musée d’Orsay in Paris, a photograph from a British photographer I met in Auckland harbour, an old car on a Uruguayan street…
It sometimes feels as though I spend half my time reminiscing about travels gone by, and the other half planning the next adventure. I’m a dreamer at heart, I always will be. It’s something that’s got me through the roughest of times, as I hope and imagine the future. But it makes me fearful too. For I am here, right now in this moment. A moment that I will never get back again. The last thing I want is for it to slip by, unnoticed.
Once again I find myself in that funny transition stage of life. I’ve completed my MA, my dissertation is done and dusted, and the next firm commitments on my calendar are my graduation and my best friend’s wedding in December. Ultimately, I am completely and utterly free.
My days of late have involved a lot of soul-searching (I despise that term but it is ridiculously apt) and figuring out what the heck I want to do with my life. No biggie. So clearly there is a lot of future planning going on round these parts.
Yet, the other day I remembered to look up and see just where I am, right now. In the heart of the Herefordshire countryside with the most perfect view of the leaves turning that crisp golden colour that I love so much. I am surrounded by fresh air, nature and freedom. I have my whole life ahead of me, there is no real need rush. Right now, I am 24-years old with no firm commitments.
I am a firm believer in the concept that we go through waves in this life. Waves of ridiculously busy periods where the water comes crashing down upon us, leaving us gasping with little space for air but at the same time completely exhilarated from the adrenalin and sense of accomplishment it brings. And then there are there gentle waves, the sea of calm. They may make things appear a little hazy and we may feel a little lost but sometimes it’s the perfect space and respite needed to prepare us for the adventure.
Freedom has always been my word in this life and right now I have it in abundance. So it’s time to embrace it. This is my whole life, in this very moment.